What was Monday

Monday my section sergeant had flown to another camp to check up on some of our subordinate battalions. That left me to man the guns. Oh boy.

As I stepped in to the office, the night shift of the section we officed with piped up, “You have a mission.”

“Yeah, what is it?” I replied.

“There is an Iraqi kid coming in for treatment at the clinic. You need to be there to take pictures.”

“Ok, when, at what clinic, what kind of treatment, and at what phone number?”

“Oh, I don’t know, all your sergeant said was to get some pictures.”

Since there were about 10 clinics on camp and only one within walking distance, I decided to try the closest one.

Thinking that these stories always end up with me putting in a few miles between me and several buildings full of people who have no idea what I’m talking about, I was prepared for a day of walking.

Luckily, my first visit struck info.

“Yeah, there’s an Iraqi child that is to be treated here around noon,” one of the medical officers from our battalion said. “Well, his family is arriving at noon. It’ll take them a while to get through the gates.”

My watch bore the signs of 1045, a few minutes before lunch and a few more before noon. It was back to the office for the interim.

I had no sooner dropped my weapon next to my desk when a sergeant major came barreling into the office.

“PAO, just who I needed to see,” he said in that characteristic here-comes-a-work-request tone.

“Yes, sergeant major,” I rose and stood at parade rest.

“Now, this is just in the forming stages, but we need you to begin to get a hold of television stations – ESPN, HBO, Fox, NBC, ABC, all of those...,” he started out.

Okay, I thought, he’s messing with me. A little fun-with-the-evil-journalist game. Since most military members are raging conservatives, they also have the republican innate hatred for “the media,” of which I am technically a member.

I say technically because what I write are processed Army “command messages” – i.e. propaganda. Thus, no self-respecting journalist would ever share his title with me. Yet hardly any of my compatriots would ever see me as anything else. So, I’m stuck between the two sides of journalist and soldier and not trusted by either one.

“...and get them to give you a time when they can record Jay Leno and (insert miscellaneous sportscasters I’m not familiar with), and all those guys saying they support our brigade and are behind us and all that...”

Now the joke was going a little longer than usual. Could he be serious?

“...There is a major in the operations shop that was in Bosnia and said his unit got Leno to say a few jokes when he visited the troops. They even got a 30-minute video saying hi to the soldiers from all these celebrities, so I know it can be done...”

Wow, he was serious! Did he have any idea of how embarrassing it was going to be to call up and be laughed off the phone as I asked the biggest names in television to send video messages to a pencil-pushing mid-sized unit like ours?

“...So have it ready to go so when the colonel pulls the trigger, we can get it going.”

Ah, so not only did Conan O’Brian need to send a video, but we were putting him on hold until we were ready? Got it.

I let out a “Hooah, good training” and the sergeant major spun around and left. Looking down at the watch again, 1140 looked back at me. Having a mountain of bullshit fall on you is a good way to kill a few minutes.

Camera in hand, I headed toward the clinic where the little tike was going to be looked at.

After arriving, I met the medial captain who had started the whole request.

“Now just to give you a little background on the child,” he began, “Saturday he was wounded by a warning shot fired by a convoy...”

Jesus. Ok, go on, I said in my internal monologue.

“Apparently the bullet hit something in the car and sent shrapnel shooting at the child. Now it was totally our fault, so we brought him in for treatment that night to de-debris the wound – that is, scrub out the metal and dirt on the surface.”

Jesus. Ok, I’m good now.

“Unfortunately it was getting late by the time he made it to us. The father said he had to get the child home because it was getting dark. Things aren’t safe on the roads at night. Isn’t that sad?”

...Oh...um, sad? You mean like being shot at by a convoy sad, or the country is in such a state of turmoil that blood, death, and violence stalk the populace as night falls, sad?
“Anyway, he’s here now for us to check up on him again. Most of the wounds are superficial and are healing nicely.”

Yes, lucky us. We “dodged a bullet” on this one, apparently. (Quotes for emphasis, notice the irony...oh God, there it is.)

I got my pictures and headed back to the office. At the end-of-the-day commander brief, the medics reported on treating the child.

“PAO,” the colonel said. “Get me a story on that kid. That’s good stuff we’re doing – helping the Iraqi people.”

Now I’ll probably have to edit out the whole “What caused the wounds?” part of the story, but, yeah, good stuff.

“But don’t release the pictures. There are spies everywhere and I don’t want the family getting attacked because they used our medics.”

Ladies and gentlemen we are floating in space.

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gone gone gone

Some soldiers broke into the office that hosts our internet access in the trailers and stole some stuff. I'll be out of the loop for a couple days until they reactivate us.

"But how can you post this without internet access?" some might be asking. Mmmmmm, excellent question.

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Simile

You know those cool spring mornings where the mists haze the Sun and woodland sounds are hushed?

Well Iraq is like that – except there are deafening generators and incoming aircraft. And there’s no green. And the “mist” is actually smoke. And it smells like butt.

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A planned revolt

Everyone has worked for an unreasonable boss. Warzones are no exception.

While civilians can quit jobs that get too arduous, military-types just have to weather the storm.

So, since those deployed can't mutiny and steer their ship toward familiar shores, the three E7s and I of our section have decided to invent a way to up the freak-out factor.

I recommend this course of action for anyone who feels the need to send a friendly "back off, jerk" message to their bosses. It is a four-part play, and requires ammunition, so I suppose the whole endeavor will be relegated to military audiences. Anyway...

The Communist: Have one person start reading "The Communist Manifesto" in their off time. After a few days, have the person nail a piece of paper to the door of the section, stating the six-or-whatever steps a group should take to establish a Communist state.

The Psycho: One person should start cleaning their weapon constantly, staring at nothing but the parts for 15-20 minutes at a time. They should cease talking, and when the boss starts on his kick, begin to unload and reload M16 magazines. Be sure to emphasize the "click" of each round as it is put in.

The Muslim: My favorite. One soldier should convert to Islam. Be sure to leave the office for prayer and have your mat displayed prominently in your work space. In conversation, say "infidel" instead of "soldier." Make nice with the locals, and score one of those small radios they carry around so you can tune in to the religious sermons through the day. Start to speak with an accent.

The Counter: Have someone put up a sign listing how many days are left. Make a big ceremony every day as you take down the old number and put up the new one. Put in statements every hour or so like, "Wow, the time really is going." Comment constantly how upcoming events are only "(X) days away from Christmas," or whatever random holiday you choose. Use crazy, extrapolated formulas when counting till the next milestone.

Such as: "You know, if you figure the two-weeks before and two-weeks after Christmas, Easter, and Thanksgiving will be wasted since we'll be distracted. And if you figure it could take two weeks of travel time in addition to our mid-tour leave. And if you don't count days with "Ts" in them -- or the days when you get some dessert. Then -- hell, we only have three days until we go home. Wow, this year flew by"

Enjoy.

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The jerks

Lt. D to the left, Sgt. H on the right, and the crazed super scuba ninja Salemonz keeping it real from above. Notice the svelte armored shoulder pads, scoped M16, and general look of fierce awesomeness.

Ducks in a row Pt.1

The sun had set by the time I exited the camp PX. Only a fading band of light on the horizon was left. The stars were out and dazzling. It was like the sand from the day had scrubbed clean the skies. It was beautiful.

Catching the bus back, I walked to my trailer, letting the drudgery from the day turn into sleepiness. Although it was only early evening, I needed to convince my body to get some rest before I had to report to the motor pool. For the weekend, the night would be my day.

I hear about one in the morning a lot, but it’s not often I see it for myself, at least on a day’s start.

Down at the motor pool, the gang was readying the trucks. We were only taking five vehicles to Camp Anaconda that day, but were going to join a larger convoy, so we had the numbers needed for safety.

What was a little sketchy on the safety factor was the soft-top Humvee I had been assigned. Actually, I had volunteered to ride in it, since everyone was chicken. While our up-armored Humvees boast all-around armor plating, this poor thing had make-shift armored doors slapped on the sides. The roof was cloth and had a big, gaping hole cut in the middle for roof access. The guys looked at it with nervous eyes.

Named “The Punisher,” our ride had the skull from the comics painted on the side. Cute.

“When I told my wife what I was riding in, I also said the name meant that it punished the people inside. She didn’t think that was funny,” my lieutenant said. Lt. D was a good guy, prior enlisted, and so didn’t let all the officer broo-haha get in the way of getting crap done.

Sgt. H, our brigade armorer, would be driving. Lt was on TC (front passenger), so that left me free to ride along in back.

Sgt. H wasn’t too thrilled about the cloth roof, and would shake his head whenever he looked at the huge hole that was the “hatch.”

We had put sandbags on the floor to help slow down any shrapnel that might come blowing through. Not that it would block it, but maybe just allow it to stop in our butts rather than shoot through our whole bodies. We couldn’t do much against anything rigged to hit us from above.

Our battalion chaplain showed up to give us a send-off prayer. Even the guys who don’t subscribe to the whole religion gig play along. Prayer in the military is just a good time for introspection, if not a small talk with the Almighty. We always appreciate the thought.

After loading the weapons and material we were bringing to Anaconda, we rolled out to the staging area to meet up with the rest of the convoy. Elements from the camp’s Quick Reaction Force would be on gun-truck duty. While we had a few .50-cals ourselves, the QRF boys would be the ones racing to intersections and patrolling the lines to maintain security; we would just be scanning for targets from our places in line.

“Okay okay, form it up, lets get this briefing out of the way,” a master sergeant spat out, breaking the guys away from their laughs and cigarettes.

The briefing lasted about 30 minutes, which was a long time for a newbie like me to stand around in my armor, weapon slung, and a big honkin’ camera bag on my hip. Afterwards we hopped in our trucks and headed for the nearby gate.

But the guards wouldn’t let us through. Apparently there was a problem with the paper work. It was one thing to deny access to people trying to come on the post, but I though it a bit ridiculous that we couldn’t get out.

After driving along the length of the camp, we left through the north gate. Dirt mounds flanked the path, giving us some cover as we snaked our way out to the roads.

By now morning was creeping into the sky and my first sight outside the wire was of a Iraqi man across the street, slinging rocks at us as we passed.

Iraq is a desolate place. Sure, there are trees and plants that keep it from being a total wasteland, but what does constitute villages are little more than rusted out buildings and mud-brick houses.

Single florescent bulbs are hung everywhere and serve as the preferred sources of light. Little stripes of light spelled cryptic messages for us along the houses in the growing morning.

Smells wafted in and out from our sun roof. Piles of trash would sit along the roads. Mounds and mounds of the stuff, some of them smoldering from an evening burn. It was an olfactory cornucopia.

As we came up to some kids walking to school, I readied myself for more rocks, but got waves instead. We were 1 and 1, series tied.

They tell you to look for piles of rubble, rocks, disturbed earth, or anything that might conceal a roadside bomb. Problem is, the road is lined with piles of rubble, rocks and disturbed earth. The whole thing makes you a bit edgy, and Sgt. H wasn’t taking any chances. He’d swerve right and left whenever he saw a pile big enough to conceal a boomer. The way the Humvee rocked back and forth, I can see vehicle rollovers are such a problem.

Soon I was up on the roof, snapping pictures of this and that. Unfortunately the low light blurred most of the shots. I didn’t stay up there for more than a couple minutes at a time, partly because it made the Lt nervous, but mostly because what was a chilly morning was bone biting at 50 mph.

After a couple turns and a few minutes, we made it to Anaconda. There it was, half the trip was over.

I know you never know when you’ll get hit, and every moment outside the wire is supposed to be this horrifying wait for the boom to send you to oblivion, but I can’t think like that and get by. I’ll pop.

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Well good morning to you too

Five o’clock Friday morning smacked me in the face.

Sitting up in my bed, the room dark, I reached over to quiet my alarm clock before my roommate woke up.

After a minute or two of rubbing my eyes, I started my little morning ritual of changing in the dark. When living with someone on different work schedules in a tiny room, you get quite good at operating in darkness – finding shoes, keys, stepping over bags and clothes.

I locked the door as I stepped out. It was cold – damn cold. Just as I had begun to grow used to fierce heat, now the fall was bringing a new aspect of arid life. I stopped for a second and thought about putting on a jacket, but figured I’d warm up after starting the run.

Friday was chest/triceps day. I had started a nice little six-day weight workout plan from awhile back. Although the gym was very crowded by 0530-ish, I didn’t mind squeezing a little more sleep out of my night verses a few fewer bodies in the weight room.

Forgoing most of my stretching routine, I started my mile-or-so jog to the nearest gym. I heard there were three in the general area of my gym, but had never bothered with finding them. This gym was the biggest and was right next to a huge dining facility – easy to find.

I made my way on the gravel paths through the clusters of trailers that housed everyone from aviation personnel to cooks. Some were sound asleep, other clusters showed the beginnings of life. A smattering of runners gave me a few people to say “hello” to.

Down the street and around a few corners, I finally came to the gym itself. It wasn’t until I reached for the door that I realized I had forgotten my ID card back in my trailer. Without it, nada on the weight room. You needed it to get in, and the civilians who run the place are cold-hearted bastards when it comes to exceptions.

Oh well, I thought, and started along the normal route I use on run days. Rounding the nearby PX and heading south put me near the fence that slides along the south-western edge of the camp. An Iraqi village was beyond the fence. Apparently there were two villages nearby: A friendly Shiite one to the south, and the not-so-friendly Sunni town next to the fence.

After finally finding my pace, there was this boom that happened off beyond the fence. Then this sort of whine – like a police siren spinning down. Just hearing that, I thought a police car outside the gate had just been hit with an IED. Strange that the police siren hadn’t been going off before it was hit.

Then there was a louder boom to my left. This explosion had more of a cracking sound and was definitely on camp.

Thus went my education on mortar attacks. The thumping sound was the launch. The whine was the shell arching into the sky. The cracking explosion was the shell hitting.

No mortar alarm sounded, so I kept running. I was heading home anyway and figured I’d make it back before another hit came.

Two minutes later I was almost home when the alarm finally went off, signaling everyone to head to the bunkers.

Another thump came from my right. You could barely hear the shell’s whistle over the siren. Small arms fire started up in the distance – apparently some of the guards saw who was shelling us.

Then a flash off to my left, some 150 meters away. The shell had burst in the air, leaving a small cloud hanging in the sky like a July 4th firework. Wow, close one, I thought.

Veering off the road, I headed to a nearby bunker and huddled in the concrete and dirt shelter with some sleepy Mississippi National Guardsmen. A first sergeant nodded at me as I came in.

“Air burst?” he asked. “Roger, top, close as hell,” I said.

A few minutes went by before the choppers started up. Watching them from the bunker, they flew low over the camp toward the offending village, searching for our attackers. An unmanned aerial vehicle took to the sky as well, putting more eyes on the now still and quiet row of shacks beyond our border.

And that was it. Soon we got the signal saying we could leave the bunkers. I said my goodbyes and made it back to my trailer. Just another attack. No biggie.

Retelling the story later to a sergeant first class in my personnel office, she said, “With it that close, you could qualify for a combat action badge. All you need is two eye witnesses.”

Not that I was gunning for the award, but no dice – I was alone, I told her. “Oh well,” she replied.

Regardless, it was an interesting start to the day; and the convoy I was scheduled to go on that night would make the day’s close just as eventful. Our main supply routes are very interesting places, full of suspense and adventure. Damn insurgents love sending us little bombs to keep us on our toes.

Thank God it’s Friday just doesn’t have the same sparkle as it does in the states.

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Autumn befalls

This morning had a slight chill. The desert took a break. I hear we’re moving into the cold, rainy season. These next two or three weeks are “when it’s nice,” so I’m living it up and spending as much time outside as I can.

Working as a reporter, I can grab my camera and just take to the streets for an hour or so at a time, on the auspices of...well, reporting. It’s a good break from the emails and meetings that my unit has me busy with on a normal day.

The winds are also picking up. And while that brings a reprieve from the heat, it also stirs up a thick halo of dust that settles along the bottom of the afternoon skies, forcing the sun to wheeze through pallid, bone-white sunsets.

The dust also makes everyone cough, which leaves throats a bit raw. With all the trash burning and normal crap in the air, I wonder just how much of the soreness is from the dust and not some toxic pollutants.

Evening usually falls across the camp while I’m in my office, processing photos or typing news releases.

Tonight was poetry night at some building across camp. Although I was off before the thing started, I wasn’t able to find out exactly where “Building 638” was before things got too dark.

The days are going faster now. Poof, it’s already been another week. Crazy, right? Pretty soon it’ll be Christmas and then I’ll be 85 with four great-grandchildren. Zim-zam-zoom.

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The drink that wins wars

Red Bull, now with Taurine!! Soldiers drink two or three of these things per meal. Nothing like Americans hyped up on Taurine...scary.

A strange feeling

“I’m ready to do my part in OIE IV,” one of our guys from legal said the other day.

It was a play on words from our Operation Iraqi Freedom IV mission to what he termed “Operation Iraqi Escort.” Talking with several soldiers who deployed with 4ID before, playing escort was a major part of many soldiers’ lives.

Since many jobs have been taken over by contractors, every day several Soldiers are tasked with walking around with the LNs (local nationals) that come on camp, ensuring the Iraqi workers don’t engage in anything clandestine. The escorts don their armor, helmets, load their magazines, and generally put on a quintessential American “fuck ‘em” attitude to get them through the hot day.

Meanwhile the LNs go here and there, working on everything from laying phone lines, to welding, to emptying garbage bins, washing down toilets, or even just picking up trash on the roads.

My latest turn came a few days ago when some Iraqi guys were laying network lines through our living areas, hooking up some trailers to the Internet. Only one guy spoke any sort of English, so communication consisted of pointing and nodding. Things went pretty smoothly, albeit a bit awkwardly, since I felt like one of those mounted policemen watching over a convict highway cleanup crew. Nothing says “We’re here to liberate you” than a loaded assault rifle tracking your every move.

There came a part when a small ditch was needed to bury the wire across the span between the latrines and the other half of the trailers.

Of course the Iraqis couldn’t bring any tools with them, so they looked to me, mimicking a pick to break through the hard-packed gravel.

All I could come up with was a small shovel that we used to dig foxholes with. It could be unfolded in such a way to serve as a sort of pick, so I handed it to the shlep charged with digging the thing.

He continued to make the pick mimic, but seeing as how I kept shrugging my shoulders, he took his meager implement and began chipping away at the rocks.

Bits and chunks shot everywhere as he tried to work through the inches and inches of packed gravel. Having to stop every couple of minutes for water, he would look up at me every so often with the sort of stare that said, “This would have been a whole lot easier with a damn pick, jerk.”

It was lunchtime and soldiers would pass by every so often, asking what we were doing. Sometimes I would say “digging a ditch” but found “looking for weapons of mass destruction” to sound more exciting. Either explanation would get a “Oh, okay” as they continued to their trailers.

About an hour and one banged-up entrenching tool later, the small ditch was ready for the wire. My guard relief came to let me get some lunch as the Iraqi who had been digging began to bandage up a gash on his hand. All the poor bastard had was a napkin and electrical tape, but it was better than nothing, I guess.
After lunch I was waylaid by other duties, so that ended my first critical mission of OIE IV.

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I luva the women

Aw hell

We’ve had two casualties this week. Not deaths, and not combat related, but two cats already on their way back to cooler climes.

First up was a private from our motor pool, I think. Two days ago he was playing some basketball on the court right outside of our command building. Some other soldier shoved him during a shot and whipped him into the pavement, face first. Poor bastard had his teeth punched through his lip, broke the bone plate on the roof of his mouth, and split his lower lip down to his chin.

His first surgery took place in Baghdad, but I hear he’ll be heading to Germany soon. His part in the war is over.

Then yesterday a private was found unconscious, sprawled out at the entrance of his platoon leader’s door. He was also flown to Baghdad. I don’t know what was wrong with that guy.

In response to the first incident, all basketball was banned. This latest incident has prompted the unit to contemplate having a sign out/in sheet for whenever you go anywhere or do anything. Want to go to chow from your room? First, walk to the battalion sign-out roster, then walk to the dining facility. Afterward go sign back in, then return to your room. Never mind the fact that battalion is on the opposite side of our area of operation. That means a whole lot more walking than usual.

I wonder if, in response to our first combat-related death, they’ll ban all operation and send us home. If basketball is so dangerous, who knows how we’ll cope with war?

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Tuned in

I’ve never understood the allure of having a television in an office. Sure, it shows news and all that jazz, but I’ve always found it to be too distracting.

Maybe since I don’t normally watch TV I have this strange hypersensitivity to the thing, but I can’t not watch TV if it’s on. As soon as that high-pitched screen whine powers up, my mind goes numb, my eyes glaze over, and I start drooling.

Since my public affairs shop is so small, I’m with the S1 Personnel Office. Our office doesn’t have a working phone, a working stapler, or enough desks, but by God we have a 27-inch dual-voltage television with a satellite decoder.

And any veterans out there will feel my pain when I talk about having to watch the Armed Forces Network all day.

Not that it’s terrible – normally they show normal programming from the states, especially news, which they just feed on over. It’s the advertisements that get ya.

The military has broadcasters and creative-types (of which I am supposedly a member) that sit around and wait for their respective commanders to share what messages they want the people to hear. We call them “command messages.” You know, that whole “loose lips sink ships” sort of thing. But these helpful tidbits also drift into combating the ever-present specter for service members of substance abuse, financial woes, domestic violence, and emotional distress.

Commercials on AFN are a mix of straight propaganda and PSAs to urge military personnel to seek help if they have these problems.

Problem is, it’s so damn depressing. Every other commercial tells me I’m a depressed, drunk wife-beater with a gambling problem, and that I need help. By the time the news comes back on, chiming in with more real-life woes, I’m ready to jump off a damn bridge.

Luckily I’m not inside everyday to have to hear how screwed up I am. Bring on the heat!

P.S. more photos and posts on the way. I've been culling a list during the interim.

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Back in black...er...desert tan?

A few days ago (honestly I don't remember if it was Friday through Sunday), we waited until nightfall, bussed over to the airfield at Anaconda, and boarded several Chinook helicopters bound for Camp Taji, our final destination.

Hurrying on to the darkened tandem-rotored chopper, we rushed down the sides of the interior and slapped ourselves next to each other, buckled in and waited for takeoff. The churning whoosh-whoosh-whoosh of the two rotors rocked the chassis back and forth like one of those cheap vibrating beds.

The crew gunners were at their stations with night-vision goggles. We could see a slight outline of green on their faces as they watched us board.

I sat and clutched the carry-on bag on my lap. Sitting across from one of the circular window ports, I had a fair view of the tilting and moving horizon once we were airborne.

The ride was smoother than I expected, hearing stories from the young captains about some hell-bent ride of death they'd been on during some summer session of their ROTC. The trip was uneventful, save for the few flares chalk two dropped as we traversed the countryside to discourage any missiles looking for targets. Each flare would light up our chopper for a second and then drift groundward, moving our illumination up the walls and to the ceiling.

Upon arrival to Taji, we were taken to a basketball court for our initial welcome briefings and room assignments. The first bout of good news was that we didn't have to wear our body armor everywhere. That will keep the ol' body temperature down. The second lucky draw for ol' Salmons was that I got a two-man trailer instead of an open bay. While I feel a little bad for the poor jokers that are living in the old crumbling, bombed out buildings, I can't let that let me not enjoy what would have been their bragging right had the tables been turned.

So I'm back, and with Internet access! More later friends. I'm off to bed.

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The Good Life

We've been spoiled these past few days in Camp Anaconda, waiting for our rides to our final spot.

Our unit, which normally has three to six formations a day to put out every impulsive scrap of information, no longer can have large groups of people standing out in the open. It's sort of a mortar risk.

So, our leadership is in a state of shock, it seems, with no formations to organize or information to put out, they've snapped from their usual "fill every waking second of soldiers' time" and have left us alone.

That means days spent in the MWR center, sipping on free water and watching TV, checking email, or playing Playstation. Good stuff.

Our rides to our final leg were initially going to be helicopters, but there have been some SNAFUs with that, hence our delayed departure.

Yesterday, the word got out that we might have to *gasp* convoy over to camp, which would only take an hour or so...no biggie.

It wasn't the soldiers that started to freak out, but our senior enlisted and several officers. Wide eyed, some came up to me, "Did you hear we might have to convoy over?"

"Well, yeah, that's usually what happens if we don't have wings," I replied.

"But it's dangerous."

Really? Iraq? Dangerous? It's not charging a machine-gun nest or anything, but, yeah, it's a tad more risky than visiting grandma.

I guess I was just surprised at how quickly the mood changed. Over the past few months, our seniors have been freaking our soldiers out with "how serious all this training is."

Every waking second, they'd pump the guys full of fear that they'd kill half the damn Army if their boots weren't shined enough or if they forgot the seventy-seven steps to reacting to an IED attack. All of it was to try to keep the soldiers awake during classes and training. And it worked. Aside from the normal "dumb private" moments, the soldiers have behaved themselves, and are in as good of spirits as you can be while breathing sand.

It's just too bad that the pillars we have to look up to shake so easily. Officers are officers -- they are their own world, but NCOs are supposed to be the steady hand that guides the young soldiers, and when their attitude consists of "I ain't leaving the base. I'm just here to get paid. You go on the convoys." It makes my job of encouraging the young guns a lot harder.

Such is life. I imagine it's always been that way.

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Happiness is...

...sitting in the belly of a C-130 with 54 other soldiers, side by side, idling at the end of a runway in Kuwait at three in the afternoon.

Your butt hurts because of all the gear, your legs hurt because you're packed so tight against the cargo pallet that you can't move anything, and your head is about to explode because of the scorching unbearable heat. Another five minutes and I would have gone for my ammunition, but probably wouldn't have been able to reach it.

After takeoff things cool down and your stomach settles. Not being able to see out windows makes me more sensitive to motion sickness, I guess.

Now I had heard of "tactical landings" several times before. When enemy fire is expected in a landing zone, an aircraft will conduct random evasive maneuvers before screaming toward the ground in an effort to frustrate any bad guys trying to get a missile lock. It involves a lot of banking, climbing, and diving.

What I hadn't expected was how crazy all this plays out when you're locked in the dark underbelly of a cargo plane, nor how nimble those damn planes were! Yikes. I almost puked, but managed to keep it down, much to the relief of the 20 or so in my spray area.

The ramp opened and I noticed that it was dark -- well, I noticed after a construction vehicle had pulled up to the aircraft and unloaded the pallet, giving us our first glance at Iraq.

The air was more humid than Kuwait, and it was still pretty warm, even though the sun had set. There were no lights on the airfield, save for the headlights of a couple of vehicles moving in the distance.

A civilian man in an armored vest appeared out of the night, "Get your gear and get on the bus, you all are here at a bad place and at a bad time. Move it!"

Jumping down from the ramp, the props blew away the motion-sickness bag I was going to keep as a souvenir. Damn, I thought, and kept huffing it to the buses, waiting just outside the light shining from the rear of the plane.

I stepped on the bus to see a Vietnam-era man, with long, gray hair, and an American flag for a bandana. "Howdy," he said, smiling.

We all hurried in, tucked our rifles in between our legs and packs as best we could, and sped away from the C-130 as it started down the runway again, eager to get off the vulnerable ground.

Fires burned across several blocks of the area beyond the airfield. For all I know, it could have been a big trash fire, but it seemed awfully close to the airport. I didn't have time to ask what was going on. Tracer fire flickered at the other end of the runway, random fire into the sky by insurgents, trying to hit some of our aircraft, someone said. "They usually don't hit anything -- or it could just be a wedding or something."

"Now when we get to the processing center, you'll need to get your people in to the tents as quickly as possible," the civilian worker said to our plane commander. "They've got that place zeroed in as well."

We drove down the streets, turning enough times to make me lose all my points of reference.

Concrete barriers were everywhere, surrounding buildings, trailers, perimeters, everything. Bits and chunks were missing from a lot of them, evidence of the "continued random mortaring" that this place has endured for the past several years.

As we pulled in to a fortified series of tents, the civilian went on. "Just last night we had a rocket hit between tents A and B. There are 120 people in those two tents. It's a goddamned miracle that thing didn't go off. I caught some Filipino lady with a GPS in here about a month ago, so they know what the coordinates are. Keep your helmets on and get inside. Good luck."

Once we were off the buses, things didn't seem that bad. Several units used this place as a staging area for leaving and coming, whether just on leave or leaving for good. Many didn't have any armor on at all, and the order for us to keep everything on made us seem like daisy-fresh rookies, which we were.

So the year starts.

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Hurray

Happy birthday me! 25 and still ticking.

Damn, out of time already...these 15-minute blocks go quick when you're trying to pay bills and stuff. More later :(

Round 2

...And then I found out I had guard duty tonight in our operations center, which just so happens to have an Internet-capable computer. Sweetness.

Here is that entry I promised:

And so it came to pass that we should have training while in Kuwait. Announcements were made to prepare us for what was to come.

"We have a convoy live-fire range on the 28 and 29th. Pack a bag to stay overnight."

Overnight? Pack what bag? I'm living out of my bags.

I made do with a pouch that normally attaches to a ruck sack. I threw in the essentials and one pair of undies. It was just one night, I could "rough it," no problem.

So the 28th came...

"Formation at 0830 in full battle."

We woke up and went out.

"Ok...the next formation will be at 1130. Dismissed."

Turning around back to the tent, I wondered how we'd be able to be at lunch (they started serving at 1100), fight through the normal crowds, eat, walk the distance back, gear up, and be in formation at 1130. Hrmm, looks like I was skipping lunch.

1130 arrived.

"Ok...the busses leave at noon. Everybody line up and wait to get on."

We boarded the stuffy busses in our armored regalia and, once on our way, sat through the 20-minute rerun of the "Kuwait Landscape Show."

Arriving at the staging area outside of our camp, we hopped off our transports.

"Get in formation so we can split you up into your convoy vehicles."

Standing in the desert afternoon with our sleeping gear, weapons and armor, we waited a good 15 minutes before all of the "Oh, she's with your group?" glitches were worked out.

Properly soaked, I took my seat behind the driver of vehicle number three and readied my camera for whatever scene was to come.

Although I had time to look around, the only picture opportunities involved soldiers standing still. A little dry.

So, I returned to my vehicle and sat in the heat.

All in all, two hours passed before our fuel was topped off and we started down the road.

We pulled in to our training site around 1630-ish. The sun was settling into the bosom of the normal sandy haze at the bottom of the Kuwait sky.

"Get your shit, download it in tent six, and form up outside."

Walking toward the two rows of four tents (the only feature inside of the sand perimeter) one of our sergeants major intercepted us.

"Get into tent seven and get ready for class."

I spoke up, "Sergeant major, we're still holding all of our sleeping gear and packs. Can we download them in our sleeping tent first?"

He stared at me -- well right through me, really, and barked an order.

"Sergeant first class Jackson, direct this traffic into tent seven."

"Yes sergeant major," he replied.

"Well? Why am I still out here doing this?" Sergeant major said before storming off.

For a few bewildering minutes we stood outside, clutching our things. Personnel from the 101st Airborne Division were in our tents already, having arrived earlier, and there was no place for us to go.

"Drop your bags outside and wait," someone eventually said.

Our leadership had disappeared to some meeting. We were on our own for the moment.

Many started to eat the "Jimmy Deans" we had been issued for dinner. These meals were sealed Styrofoam plates with a can of juice, potted meat, ham salad, Oreos, and a vacuum-sealed bun.

I normally drank the juice and gnawed on the bread for a while, but otherwise avoided the processed contents.

Some time passed but the cool of the early evening made it easy. Our numbers had dwindled as the leaders realized they brought too many to training. The extras boarded another bus to return didn'the other 3/5ths of the unit that didn't even come.

The 101st guys eventually left, and we filed in to tent six -- the sergeant major had gone back with the extras, so he didn't care anymore. All was well for the moment.

"Well, you all were late, so no training tonight," the civilian instructor told us when our remaining few had been seated. "We'll start tomorrow."

We did have enough for two groups -- or "serials" as they call them in convoy-ese. One serial would sleep in tent six, the other in number seven.

And so at 1830, with the approaching night gathering to ambush the remaining light, we started to claim spots on the classroom tent floor to sleep on.

I got a wooden bench. My bag with toothbrush and underwear was my pillow.

"You have guard duty at 2000 to 2100."

"Ok," I answered, but then remembered, "Don't the civilians have a security force out here?"

"Yes, but we ain't trusting our .50cals to them jokers."

"Fair enough. We gettin'" ammo?"

"Of course not."

"What, we supposed to cuss at the bad guys if they come?"

"Be there 10 minutes before your shift," the sergeant first class said curtly.

Reporting for guard, I noticed something and asked one of the soldiers we were relieving, "Hey, where are the .50cals?"

"I dunno."

"Why are we out here, outside the perimeter, with no ammo, to guard stuff that's not here?"

"Goodnight," the soldier said in that 'Ha ha, sucker!' tone.

My shift wasn't so bad, but others' were. Many of the soldiers were a little tired the next morning. The seniors were fine, they didn't pull things like guard, but the rest of us were a little drowsy.

"It's 0400, wake up!"

Wow, two hours to sit up, put on my boots and walk six feet to my bench for class. Thanks.

Class was three hours of decent training. Any time our unit is not involved in events, they go pretty well. Let our unit handle things, though, and watch out!

Then came time for the live fire. Our four .50cals were cut to two since we only had two soldiers qualified to fire the damn things. Windows would be closed, so no love for the rest of us. We would just observe and help simulate injures and the like.

Walking out to our vehicles, I saw something was out of place, "Hey, where's our truck?"

"Oh, I think the other serial took some of them -- they had extra people."

So for ten minutes of the big day, I handed out water to vehicles as they pulled up to the supply truck.

"Ok...you and these others are extra, go back to the tent and wait for everybody to get back."

Walking back with my new squad, I noticed the Mitsubishi SUVs parked in a pretty line. Our commanders had come to see the glorious training.

Someone yelled, "Oh shit! We only have enough ammo for the .50cals to have 100 rounds."

That's about 20 seconds of firing. Not nearly enough for two runs through the 12-mile course.

Making it back to the tent, brushing past the flies and sand, I sat on my bench and thought of that cute Michigan girl I'll eventually meet, and how I'll split a beer with some friends down the road, remembering the exasperating futility of my time trying to live as a rational man in the military.

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ack, quick quick

I had some photos and a nice, long entry all typed out for you guys, but the Internet stations here don't take data sticks, so no dice :(

Only three mintues left before I get kicked off. Nooooooooooooo.

We move north in a few days. No more Salemonz until we get settled in Iraq.

Awwww.

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